And when at last you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter— they are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you so long.
I’m on a weird SP kick lately.
With me, the present is forever and forever is always shifting, flowing, melting. This second is life. And when it is gone it is dead. But you can’t start over with each new second. You have to judge by what is dead. It’s like quicksand…hopeless from the start. A story, a picture, can renew sensation a little, but not enough, not enough. Nothing is real except the present, and already, I feel the weight of centuries smothering me. Some girl a hundred years ago lived as I do. And she is dead. I am the present, but I know I, too, will pass. The high moment, the burning flash, come and are gone, continuous quicksand. And I don’t want to die.
I didn’t make any 2012 resolutions other than to read 40 books, and I didn’t quite make it. In fact, I only got halfway there, but some of those were huge (i.e. This Much I Know is True, 11/22/63, The Passage, Cutting for Stone).
For 2013, my biggest goal is to keep my condo tidier. In the last couple years, I’ve gotten pretty lazy about this (I’m blaming a self-diagnosis of ADD), so I’m going to have to come up with some tricks to keep me on track:
Does anyone else have other tips?
My other resolution is, again, to read 40 books and/or 14,000 pages. Hopefully I do better this year.
I posted this over on boookish, but thought I’d put it here, too…
Books finished: 21
Approximate total pages: 9,480*
Best Month: March (1,651 pages*)
Kindle version: 20 (95%)
Physical copy: 1 (5%)
New Releases: 7 (33%)
21st Century: 17 (81%)
20th Century: 3 (14%)
19th Century: 1 (5%)
Fiction: 20 (95%)
Non-Fiction: 1 (5%)
Most favorite read: Rules of Civility by Amor Towles
I don’t know if I loved it because I read it at the same time as season two of Downton Abbey (they have similar tones), or if it was just really good. Either way, this story of New York upper-class society as told by the daughter of Russian immigrants was exactly my cup of tea. And, of course, it helped that we have the same first name (Katey/Katie).
Book I just couldn’t finish: The Gone-Away World by Nick Harkaway
I couldn’t get into this one, no matter how I tried. One the one hand, it had exciting things like a dystopian world, ninjas, etc., but it was also slow, and the grammar bothered me. Plenty of people love it, but I probably won’t get around to giving it a second chance.
Most surprising find in 2012: The Sisters Brothers by Patrick deWitt
Released in 2011, this book was just flat-out entertaining, and it had it all: humor, assassins, jealousy, greed.
Most memorable character: Amy from Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn
It’s best to go into this book knowing nothing about it, so I won’t elaborate.
Favorite author discovery: Justin Cronin
2014’s release of The City of Mirrors can’t come soon enough!
Favorite cover of a book read in 2012: Rules of Civility by Amor Towles
It’s so fancy!
Favorite quote/passage read in 2012: Rules of Civility by Amor Towles
“In our twenties, when there is still so much time ahead of us, time that seems ample for a hundred indecisions, for a hundred visions and revisions—we draw a card, and we must decide right then and there whether to keep that card and discard the next, or discard the first card and keep the second. And before we know it, the deck has been played out and the decisions we have just made will shape our lives for decades to come.”
Longest: I Know This Much is True by Wally Lamb, 912 pages*
Shortest: Hot Pink by Adam Levin, 207 pages*
Fastest: Prisoner of Heaven by Carlos Ruiz Zafón
Slowest: Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov
Funniest: The Sisters Brothers by Patrick deWitt
Saddest: Cutting for Stone by Abraham Verghese
Scariest: The Passage by Justin Cronin
Best Writing: State of Wonder by Ann Patchett
* Page numbers from Goodreads.com
Wow, this is hard. All year I’ve been making a playlist in Spotify in order to make sure I remember all of the artists I listened to this year, but I’ve found I likedsongsmore than fullalbums. The list below is mostly based on how much I listened to certain albums.
Top Ten Albums:
Of Monsters and Men - My Head is an Animal (since it came out in 2011 everywhere except the U.S.)
Ellie Goulding - “Anything Could Happen”